Holistic Health: A Christian Perspective and Morning Meditation for Women
As Christian women, we know that our lives are more than just our physical health—our spirit, mind, and body are intricately woven together by God. Holistic health is a way of honoring this divine design, embracing the truth that God created us as complex beings with interconnected layers. When we approach health holistically, we don’t just focus on one aspect—whether it’s physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual. We seek to care for each of these areas, aligning our actions with God’s will and creating a life that reflects His goodness.
What is Holistic Health?
Holistic health refers to an approach that takes into account the whole person, not just isolated symptoms or illnesses. It’s the understanding that our physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual well-being are deeply interconnected. As Christians, we recognize that we are fearfully and wonderfully made by our Creator, and as such, we are called to care for ourselves in a way that honors Him.
Scripture teaches us the importance of caring for our bodies, minds, and spirits. In 1 Corinthians 6:19-20, Paul reminds us, “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” This verse encourages us to see our bodies as sacred vessels, deserving of our care and respect.
Holistic health also recognizes that healing isn’t just about managing symptoms. It’s about nurturing the whole person—cultivating a healthy relationship with God, ourselves, and others. It’s about addressing the physical body with nutritious food, exercise, and rest, but it also involves nurturing our hearts and minds through prayer, meditation on Scripture, and emotional healing.
Why is Holistic Health Important for Christian Women?
As women, we often juggle multiple roles—wife, mother, friend, caregiver, professional—and it’s easy to neglect our own health while caring for others. However, taking time to invest in our holistic health isn’t selfish; it’s an act of obedience to God’s command to love ourselves and care for our bodies.
In Matthew 22:37-39, Jesus calls us to love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, and mind, and to love our neighbor as ourselves. Loving ourselves is essential in fulfilling this command, and part of loving ourselves is ensuring that we are healthy in every area—physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. When we take care of ourselves, we are better equipped to love and serve others, whether it’s our families, communities, or the world.
A Christian Holistic Morning Meditation for Women
As we begin each day, it’s important to set aside time to center ourselves in God’s presence and invite His peace into our hearts. A holistic morning meditation is a wonderful way to prepare your mind, body, and spirit for the day ahead. Below is a simple meditation that you can incorporate into your morning routine to ground yourself in the Lord’s love and care.
Christian Holistic Morning Meditation for Women
Begin by finding a quiet place where you can sit comfortably. Take a few deep breaths and center yourself in the present moment. Close your eyes and quiet your heart before the Lord.
1. Connect with Your Body Start by thanking God for the gift of your body. As you inhale deeply, feel the air filling your lungs and think about how God designed your body to be strong, resilient, and beautiful. Prayer: “Father, thank You for the body You have given me. I recognize that it is a temple of the Holy Spirit, and I offer it to You this morning. Help me honor You with my health and strength.”
2. Quiet Your Mind As you breathe in and out, let go of any distractions or worries. Surrender your thoughts to God, trusting that He will help you navigate the day with wisdom and peace. Prayer: “Lord, I surrender my thoughts to You today. Clear my mind of anxiety, fear, and distraction. Fill my mind with Your peace that surpasses all understanding.”
3. Invite God’s Presence Into Your Heart Place your hand over your heart and ask God to fill you with His love. Allow His peace to wash over you as you center your spirit in His presence. Prayer: “Holy Spirit, I invite You into my heart. Fill me with Your love and peace. Help me walk in Your truth and reflect Your light to those I encounter today.”
4. Focus on Scripture Now, reflect on a Bible verse that speaks to your health and well-being. For example, you could meditate on Philippians 4:6-7: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Prayer: “Lord, help me to bring my anxieties and concerns to You today. May Your peace guard my heart and mind as I face whatever comes my way.”
5. Dedicate Your Day to God Finally, offer your day to the Lord. Ask Him to guide your steps, help you serve others with love, and walk with you through every challenge. Prayer: “Father, I dedicate this day to You. May everything I do bring glory to You. Help me love and serve others as You have loved and served me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”
Conclusion: Flourish in Every Aspect of Your Life
Holistic health from a Christian perspective is about more than just physical well-being—it’s about nurturing every aspect of our being: body, mind, and spirit. By seeking to care for ourselves in all areas, we honor God and reflect His love to the world. This holistic approach allows us to live more fully, love more deeply, and serve others with greater joy and strength.
So as you move through your day, remember that your health journey is a reflection of your trust in God’s provision. Start each day with intention and prayer, and trust that God will lead you toward the healing and wholeness He has planned for you.
A Personal Note: For the past decade, I’ve dabbled in the holistic wellness sector, initially as I navigated chronic illness. But in the past year, my journey has evolved into a true passion as I’ve encountered even more challenges, including additional chronic illness and the stress that comes with it. You can read more about that here. Through this ongoing process, I’ve come to deeply value holistic health as a way to nurture my mind, body, and spirit, trusting that God is with me every step of the way.
In a world where we’re constantly bombarded with messages about who we should be, what we should look like, and how we should live, it can be easy to lose sight of the most important thing: who we truly are.
For years, I struggled with trying to fit into molds that didn’t quite feel right. Like many people, I found myself adjusting my behavior, appearance, and even thoughts to align with societal expectations. The pressure to conform—to appear “successful,” “liked,” or “perfect”—was overwhelming. But somewhere along the way, I realized that this wasn’t sustainable, and it certainly wasn’t fulfilling.
It wasn’t until I started embracing my true self—flaws, quirks, and all—that I truly began to live authentically. And the more I leaned into my own voice, the more I noticed how powerful it could be, not just for me, but for others as well.
Here’s what I’ve learned about finding and embracing your inner voice.
1. Authenticity Starts with Self-Awareness
Before you can live authentically, you have to know who you really are. This means taking a hard look at your values, passions, fears, and desires. It involves quieting the noise of external expectations and tapping into your inner wisdom.
For me, journaling became a game-changer. It helped me clear away the distractions and uncover the thoughts and feelings that were most true to me. It also helped me accept parts of myself that I had long rejected—whether it was my imperfections, my unconventional choices, or even my vulnerabilities.
Biblical Encouragement: In Psalm 139:13-14, we are reminded that God created us fearfully and wonderfully. “For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” Embracing our true selves is part of honoring the unique design God has given us. Understanding this truth gives us the confidence to walk in authenticity, knowing that we were created intentionally.
Take time to reflect. Ask yourself: What do I truly care about? What brings me joy, even when no one else is watching?
2. Let Go of Perfection
One of the biggest barriers to living authentically is the idea of perfection. We often feel we have to present a flawless version of ourselves—especially on social media or in public life. But perfection is an illusion, and the pursuit of it can be exhausting.
I’ve learned that authenticity isn’t about being flawless; it’s about being real. It’s about showing up, messy and imperfect, and saying, “This is who I am, take it or leave it.”
Biblical Encouragement: The Bible encourages us to find strength in our weaknesses. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” Our imperfections and struggles are not barriers to authenticity—they are where God’s grace and power shine brightest.
The beauty of imperfection is that it connects us. People don’t resonate with perfection—they resonate with authenticity. So don’t be afraid to show up as you are, without filters or edits.
3. Surround Yourself with Supportive People
When you embrace your true self, it can sometimes feel like you’re stepping away from the crowd. It might be intimidating, especially if you’re used to trying to fit in. But remember: authentic people attract other authentic people. Surrounding yourself with individuals who support and uplift you can make all the difference.
I’ve found that the more I’ve leaned into my own authenticity, the more I’ve been able to connect with people who appreciate me for who I truly am—not the version I thought I needed to present. These connections are deeper, more meaningful, and far more fulfilling than any surface-level relationships I once had.
Biblical Encouragement: The Bible teaches us about the importance of community and support. In Proverbs 27:17, it says, “As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” Surrounding yourself with like-minded, God-centered individuals is a powerful way to grow and remain rooted in your authentic identity.
4. Practice Self-Compassion
Being authentic doesn’t mean you’ll always get it right. In fact, it means you’ll stumble sometimes. But rather than beating yourself up over mistakes or imperfections, it’s essential to practice self-compassion. Remember, being human is about growth and learning, not about being perfect from the start.
There were times when I doubted myself or questioned if I was being true enough. But over time, I learned to give myself grace. It’s okay to falter. It’s okay to change. What matters is your willingness to keep showing up as yourself.
Biblical Encouragement: In Ephesians 4:32, we are called to “be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” This means offering the same compassion to ourselves that God extends to us. We are all a work in progress, and God’s love is ever-present, even in our imperfections.
5. Trust the Journey
The path to authenticity isn’t linear, and it certainly isn’t always easy. There will be times when you feel uncertain or when the world around you feels like it’s pushing you in a different direction. But trust the journey. Your inner voice will guide you, even when it feels like everything else is telling you to go a different way.
I’ve come to realize that every step, even the missteps, are part of the process. The more I listen to myself and trust my own instincts, the more the world unfolds in ways I never could have planned.
Biblical Encouragement: Proverbs 3:5-6 encourages us to trust in God’s plan for our lives: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Trusting God means trusting that He will lead us along the journey toward becoming the person He created us to be.
The Bottom Line: You Are Enough
At the end of the day, you are enough—just as you are. Authenticity is not about achieving some ideal version of yourself. It’s about embracing all the layers that make you uniquely you, without apology.
So, if you’re feeling lost or disconnected, I encourage you to spend some time with yourself. Reflect, be kind to yourself, and trust that the world will fall into place as you become more comfortable in your own skin.
Remember: The power of authenticity lies in its ability to create real, meaningful connections—with yourself, with others, and with the world around you. And in that space, you can truly thrive.
What has helped you embrace your authentic self? Share your thoughts in the comments below—I’d love to hear from you!
As we step into this new year, I can’t help but reflect on the incredible journey I’ve been on over the past nine months. It’s hard to believe that I’m already 9 months post-op from my bariatric surgery (read more about that here), and though the road has had its ups and downs, I am feeling more hopeful and empowered than ever.
It’s easy to get caught up in the excitement of the beginning of a new year—the fresh start, the opportunity to set new intentions, and the chance to keep moving forward toward our goals. But when it comes to my bariatric journey, the start of 2025 also brings some new challenges, and it’s important for me to embrace them, plan for them, and keep pushing forward.
The Slowdown of Weight Loss after bariatric surgery
If you’re on a similar journey, you might know that after the initial rapid weight loss that comes with bariatric surgery, the rate of loss tends to slow down. That’s where I find myself right now. While I’m thrilled with the progress I’ve made so far, I still have a significant amount of weight to lose before I reach my goal. And with the slower pace of weight loss, I know it’s more important than ever to stay on track with my habits, my mindset, and my plan.
While it’s easy to get discouraged when the scale isn’t moving as quickly as it once did, I try to remind myself of how far I’ve come. Every pound lost, every healthy choice made, and every day I stay consistent is still progress. I’ve learned that my journey isn’t just about the number on the scale—it’s about building a sustainable, healthy lifestyle, and I’m focused on continuing that progress, even at a slower pace.
A New Tool for My bariatric Journey: Mounjaro
As many of you know, my bariatric journey has been a combination of big changes and learning experiences. One of the tools I’m now incorporating into my journey is Mounjaro, a GLP-1 medication designed to support weight loss. But this isn’t my first experience with GLP-1 medications—prior to my surgery, I had actually taken these medications to assist with weight management. However, at the time, I didn’t fully understand the importance of monitoring my diet, prioritizing protein intake, and making other critical adjustments to support my weight loss. As a result, although I did lose weight, it happened at a very slow pace, and I didn’t see the level of success I was hoping for.
Now, with the foundation of bariatric surgery and the knowledge I’ve gained about how to nourish my body properly, I’m ready to approach Mounjaro with a different mindset. I haven’t yet started the injections; instead, I’ve been focusing on maximizing my progress without medication first. Over the past few months, I’ve been diligently working on my diet and fitness routine to ensure I’m making the most of my weight loss before introducing anything extra. My goal has been to see how much I can achieve on my own—staying consistent with my protein, controlling portion sizes, and staying active.
Once my weight loss slows to around 2-3 pounds per week, I plan to start the Mounjaro injections to give me that extra support as I continue toward my goal. I’m being mindful of how my body is responding and want to make sure I’m using every tool at my disposal in a way that supports my long-term success.
I’m excited to see how Mounjaro, combined with my current habits, will help me continue to move forward. Every person’s journey is unique, and I’m taking a thoughtful approach to ensure that I’m making the right decisions for my health and progress. It’s all about finding the right balance—and I feel confident that I’m on the right path.
Preparing for a New Challenge: Ankle Surgery
Now, here’s the part where the challenges are really going to test me. On February 19th, I’ll be having ankle surgery, which will leave me non-weight bearing for a month or longer. This means I’ll have to adapt my routines, find new ways to stay active, and rely on others more than I’d like. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to throw in the towel.
I’m already taking steps to prepare for the recovery process and to ensure that my bariatric journey doesn’t stall during this time. Meal prepping has become my new best friend, and I’ve been spending extra time in the kitchen making sure I have healthy, easy-to-access meals for when I’m healing and can’t be as mobile (like this delicious roasted chicken, or this slow roasted pork shoulder– both are perfect for tacos, nachos, pulled sandwiches, and more.) I know that having nutritious meals available will help me stay on track with my eating habits, even if I’m temporarily sidelined from my usual routines.
I’m leaning heavily on my family. I’ve started delegating household chores and responsibilities to my husband and kids in advance so that they can help keep everything running smoothly while I focus on healing. I know it will be a team effort, and I’m grateful to have such a supportive group of people around me.
Lastly, I’ve also been working with my amazing personal trainer, Erika, to adapt an exercise plan that will be manageable during my recovery. Erika is helping me focus on upper body strength, core work, and other activities that I can do while I’m not able to bear weight on my ankle. It’s not ideal, but I know that staying active within my physical limits is key to maintaining my momentum.
Staying Active with Trainwell: A Game-Changer for My Journey
As I prepare for ankle surgery and adjust my fitness routine, one of the tools that has truly made a difference for me is Trainwell, an innovative personal training app that combines cutting-edge technology with personalized workout plans. If you’re looking for a way to stay on track with your fitness goals—whether you’re dealing with an injury, need more structure, or just want expert guidance—Trainwell is an absolute game-changer.
What I love most about Trainwell is how it’s tailored to fit my unique needs. The app offers:
Personalized Workout Plans: Whether I’m looking to focus on upper body strength, core stability, or rehabilitation exercises for my ankle, Trainwell’s custom plans are designed to meet me where I am.
Live Feedback: This feature is incredible for real-time adjustments to my form and technique. It is just like having a personal trainer right there with me, helping me get the most out of each session.
Cutting-Edge Technology: The app integrates advanced tracking to monitor progress, adjust goals, and give me insights into how I’m improving over time. This is a great motivator, especially as I work through recovery and try to maintain my fitness.
Support & Accountability: Through Trainwell, I’ve felt more connected to my fitness journey than ever before. The feedback, combined with their community-driven approach, gives me the accountability I need to stay on track even when life throws me curveballs.
If you’re interested in giving it a try, you can start with a two-week free trial to see how the app fits your lifestyle and goals. And as a special bonus, use my link to get $50 off your first month: Trainwell $50 Off.
With Trainwell, I’m able to stay active and focused on my fitness—even as I work through recovery. It’s definitely helping me stay strong, both physically and mentally, as I navigate the ups and downs of my bariatric journey. Give it a try and see how it can support your own goals—whether you’re recovering from surgery, building strength, or just maintaining an active lifestyle!
Embracing the Challenges Ahead
I won’t lie—this year is already shaping up to be one of growth, change, and plenty of challenges. But I am choosing to embrace them. I’m determined to keep moving forward, no matter what roadblocks come my way. My goal isn’t just about losing weight; it’s about finding strength in the process, staying resilient in the face of obstacles, and becoming the best version of myself, inside and out. I am seeking to flourish!
So as we enter 2025, I’m committing to staying focused, embracing the changes that come with both my weight loss journey and the physical challenges ahead, and trusting the process. The road may be longer and more winding than I originally anticipated, but I’m in it for the long haul. And with each step, I get closer to my goal—not just in terms of weight loss, but in terms of health, confidence, and overall well-being.
Thank you for following along with me on this journey. I’m excited to continue sharing the ups, the downs, and everything in between as we tackle this year together. Here’s to embracing change, staying committed, and celebrating every victory along the way!
Happy New Year, and let’s make 2025 the year of progress!
PS, if you’re looking for an uplifting, encouraging, and supportive community to walk alongside in 2025, I would love to invite you to join my community; The Flourish Fam! Join me LIVE on TikTok every morning (Monday-Saturday) at 7:30am EST, or on Instagram, Facebook, YouTube, or right here on the blog!
In the hustle and bustle of our daily lives, finding moments of tranquility and spiritual nourishment can be a challenge. Yet, amidst the chaos, there lies a timeless practice that offers solace and deepens our connection with God – studying The Word. The SOAP method of Bible study is a great and practical tool for diving deep into the wisdom of the Word.
Scripture: The journey begins with scripture – the living, breathing word of God. As Christians, we believe that every word penned in the Bible is divinely inspired. So, as we embark on our study, we choose a passage that speaks to us, one that resonates with our current circumstances or simply tugs at our hearts.
Observation: With our chosen scripture in hand, we embark on the path of observation. This step invites us to delve deeper into the text, to ponder its meaning, and to uncover the truths it holds. We ask questions, we analyze, and we seek to understand the context in which the words were written. Through observation, we glean insights that might otherwise remain hidden, allowing the scripture to come alive in our hearts and minds.
Application: The true power of scripture lies not merely in its comprehension but in its application. As we reflect on the passage before us, we are prompted to consider how its message applies to our lives today. What lessons can we learn? What changes must we make? The SOAP method challenges us to move beyond mere intellectual understanding and to allow the word of God to transform us from within.
Prayer: Finally, we come to prayer – the cornerstone of our relationship with God. In this concluding step, we offer up our thoughts, our reflections, and our desires to the One who hears our every word. We thank Him for the insights gained, we seek His guidance in applying them to our lives, and we ask for the strength to walk in obedience to His will.
In essence, the SOAP method is more than just a study tool – it’s a spiritual discipline, a pathway to deeper intimacy with our Creator. Through scripture, observation, application, and prayer, we embark on a journey of washing in the word, allowing its cleansing waters to purify our hearts and minds.
So, beloved brothers and sisters, as you navigate the ups and downs of life, remember the power of the SOAP method. Take time each day to immerse yourself in the scriptures, to reflect on their meaning, to apply their truths, and to commune with the One who authored them. In doing so, may you find renewal, strength, and unwavering faith in the God who loves you beyond measure.
“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” – Psalm 119:105
Also known as Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension (IIH).
Also referred to as “Liquid Brain Tumor Syndrome”.
No, it isn’t cancer. No, there is not a tumor. No, they don’t know what causes it (thus the “Idiopathic” part). Yes, I am doing okay. God is faithful. Read more, below!
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Well hello, 2024. I have been pretty absent from my blog for the last several months. Sorry about that. Sometimes, life becomes all-consuming and something has to hit the back burner. This space had to take the hit for me for a bit. But I am back and hoping to be more consistent moving forward!
I started out this new year claiming victory since 2023 was such a nightmare. For those of you don’t know, we went on vacation to Florida in February 2023 and I tripped at our resort, (nearly falling over a third-story balcony railing) breaking my left ankle, my right foot, and tearing several tendons and ligaments in both feet/ankles, my right hand, and right shoulder. I spent most of 2023 in a wheelchair recovering from surgeries and wearing a walking boot. When I wasn’t in the chair, I was using a *super cute* mobility knee scooter. But don’t worry, I did not let it get me down! *Eye twitches*
I just knew that 2023 was going to be left in the past and 2024 would be a year of new beginnings! That has been true, so far… Just not the type of “new beginnings” I was expecting.
Back in May 2023, I started having issues with extreme redness my right eye. It didn’t hurt or itch, I wouldn’t even know it was red until others would approached me with concern saying things like “Oh my gosh! Are you okay?” Here is a picture:
At first, I assumed it was allergy related. Since moving to Chatt in 2019 (the seasonal allergen capital of the world thanks to the mountains surrounding the “dust bowl” that is Chattanooga), my allergies have been other worldly. I am talking watery and itchy eyes, sneezing, and ear infections all. the. time! I made sure to take my zyrtec regularly, and even talked to my primary doctor about any additional allergy meds I could take (she added montelukast) and I figured the problem would resolve on its own. When it didn’t, I decided to see my ophthalmologist to rule out something like a corneal ulcer or something. All of those tests came back normal, so my eye doctor assumed I was having an allergic reaction to my contact solution. We switched solutions, my eyes seemed to clear up, and we thought we had found the problem! Until it came back.
Not only did the redness in my eyes come back, I also had some really strange allergic reactions to a few different things that I had never been allergic to previously: (1) gel nail polish- my nails were literally lifting away from the nail beds and bleeding and blistering. It was wild and so painful, (2) meloxicam- a strong ibuprofen prescribed by my surgeon after ankle surgery- it caused horrific cramping. I was walking out to my car and was doubled over in pain. It felt like my internal organs were trying to fall out of my body. It only lasted a few minutes, but it was terrifying, and (3) I started having acne appear on my face, worse than when I was fourteen. Picture of my acne and rosacea covered skin:
My migraines started to increase in frequency, too. I have struggled with migraines since early high school. They are horrible. When one comes on, I have a very small window of time to load up on ibuprofen, grab some peppermint essential oil, a fan, my headache hat (just like this one that is only $9 right now!), and lay completely flat in a dark room until it eases up enough that I can somewhat function. Sometimes I would even use a massage gun on my head because the vibration would help to numb out the pain. Nausea and vomiting, lack of appetite, lots of misery-induced tears, and prayer after pray of me pleading with God to please intervene and ease the pain. Talk about debilitating.
The fact that these headaches were becoming more frequent was a major problem. Not only did I not want to live with the constant pain, I also knew I couldn’t do my job well, I couldn’t do my grad school work well, and I couldn’t be the wife my husband needed me to be if I couldn’t function. I noticed that my vision, specifically in my right eye, was changing a lot. So I went back to the eye doctor assuming it was just time for my new prescription. My prescription had changed slightly, but the strangest part was that all of a sudden, my right eye was now nearsighted while my left eye was farsighted. Those glasses took some getting used to!
In addition to my bizarre prescription change, my eye doctor also ended up noticing I had a lot of dryness in my eyes and was concerned about the increase in my headaches, so she ordered some blood work, including an autoimmune panel to test for Sjogren’s Syndrome, Lupus, and anything else that could be flagged in an antibody test. Everything came back normal. I had two major ankle surgeries (one in May, one in September) in the middle of all of this, so my eye stuff had to take a back burner for a bit.
At this point, it was probably October. My new prescription glasses had come in and I had been wearing them for a couple of weeks. I had a follow up appointment to ensure my new prescription was working okay and to make sure my redness was under control. At that appointment, she had me cover each eye while wearing my glasses and read the tiny letters across the room. My right eye failed the test again. We did some more adjustments on my prescription and found that I needed a stronger power in that right eye now. The same process happened three more times over the next several weeks- I would go home and use the new prescription for a couple of weeks, go back for a follow up check, and the right eye would be worse. At the third appointment, my eye doctor noticed my optic nerves looked pretty enlarged and decided to send me for further testing; a visual field study (test peripheral vision) and an OCT laser scan (that looks deep at the optic nerve). When she called that other doctor’s office to setup my appointment, she had requested those scans be done urgently, so I started to get a little bit nervous, but I told myself it was going to be nothing and that everything would be fine.
About four days later, (we are nearing the end of November or so at this point). I went in for those scans. The techs that performed the tests were not allowed to give me any results and said my doctor would call as soon as she had them. The unfortunate part was that the results could only be sent snail mail after a doctor had read them and made a report of findings. This process took about eight days. Eight of the longest days of my life. I was sure once we got those answers, though, everything would make sense.
My doctor finally called with results about a week after Thanksgiving. I got the call when sitting outside of my counselor’s office right before my session. This was Divine intervention, as The Lord knew I would need a safe space to process all that I was feeling after getting the call. When I answered, my doctor said “Hey Molly, I got your results back from your tests. The visual field study looks great- no issues there. The OCT, however, shows some sort of tumor or mass on your optic nerve. The next step would be to get you into a neuro-ophthalmologist, but there aren’t any in Chattanooga. The second best option would be to see a neurologist, but there are none who are accepting new patients in Chattanooga currently, and even if they were, it can take 6 months or so to get in to see someone and we needed something that could help us figure out what we were dealing with more quickly. I am going to call a retina specialist and see if they have the ability to do a B-scan which can give us a clearer picture of what we are dealing with.”
I said “Okay. Thank you.” Immediately, I got out of the car and walked into my counselor’s office. As soon as my counselor said “Hey, how are you?” I started sobbing. We are talking ugly crying at this point. I was so scared. All these thoughts started racing through my mind, “How was I going to tell my husband? My kids? My siblings, nieces, nephews, grandparents, parents, aunts, uncles? A tumor? Was it cancer? was it brain cancer? Was it benign? Was it malignant? Would I live even another six weeks? Would I become a burden on everyone around me now? Why would The Lord call me to go to graduate school if He was going to walk me through this?”
Once I was able to verbalize all of my fears, Sarah (my counselor) reminded me that God is not a God of fear or panic. He wouldn’t call me to something to abandon me, and He wouldn’t allow me to face a thing that He didn’t have an ordained purpose for. I knew she was right. We concluded our session with prayer. She prayed over me prayers of health, healing, deliverance, and peace. Once I got in my car, I sat there for a moment. I spent my drive home talking with God, saying “Okay, God. I am willing to do whatever you want. Give me courage and strength. Give me peace. Above all, help this whole situation point back to Your glory in a way that shows everyone around me, especially those who don’t know You, that You are the God who works miracles together.” I didn’t stop feeling afraid, but I did have peace.
Getting into the retina specialist took longer than I would have hoped due to the holidays. We sat waiting in the unknown for about fifteen days, then I was finally able to be seen on January 4th, 2024. The B-scan (like an ultrasound of the eyes) was performed and the doctor was able to tell us that the mass seen in the OCT scan was not actually a tumor! Instead, it was a sort of sack of excess cerebrospinal fluid pressing up against the optic nerve. This seemed like great news! I said, “Great! So I don’t have a brain tumor?” The doctor said “… Well, I can’t guarantee that. But I am going to refer you to another doctor who has more experience with conditions like yours, dealing with increased pressure in the brain. He is a neuro-ophthalmologist. His office will call you within a week to set up an appointment.”
Great. More waiting. Another referral. Still no official answers, and no means of treating any of my debilitating symptoms.
It took two weeks for the new doctor’s office to call me and set up an appointment. It took another week and a half to get in to be seen. By the time we got to the appointment, I was so ready to finally get some answers. This doctor performed several tests. I was in his office for about two hours. By the time he went over all of the test results with me, I was exhausted and my head hurt so bad from all of the poking and prodding. The doctor said “The good news is, I don’t think we are at a place where your sight is in jeopardy…. yet. There is, however, some concern with these optic nerves and the excess fluid causing pressure behind them. I am going to order an MRI of your head, and an MRI of your neck, as well as an MRV (an MRI of the veins where they inject dye to check for thrombosis/aneurisms, etc.). I also want to order a lumbar puncture/spinal tap. We need to rule out any tumors or anything going on in the brain to be certain, but I think we are dealing here with a condition called Pseudotumor Cerebri (also known as Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension and Liquid Brain Tumor Syndrome)
Leaving this appointment felt both frustrating and also relieving. I wanted answers desperately, but at least this way I knew what we were going to be looking for.
My MRI scans and MRV came back clear and unremarkable (HUGE PRAISE & SIGH OF RELIEF).
My lumbar puncture/spinal tap was another story. The whole lumbar puncture process was painful and honestly, super traumatic, but it is done, and we got answers! My opening pressure was so high (35), spinal fluid actually shot out onto the floor! Knowing the doc had said I needed 25 or above for a diagnosis, I knew immediately that I finally had my answer. The next day, my doctor called to confirm and sent in a prescription for me. A “baby dose”, he called it, of Diamox- a diuretic.
I had joined several virtual support groups and done tons of research about Pseudotumor Cerebri leading up to my spinal tap, so I had heard all about Diamox. The majority of stories I had heard about Diamox were that it was intolerable and horrific. Many people actually said they would rather just live with the pressure migraines caused by the condition instead of dealing with the side effects of the drug. The side effects ranged from severe dehydration to kidney stones to hospitalization. I had also read that because it is a diuretic, it also keeps you from sweating meaning that sun exposure becomes increasingly dangerous and toxins have no way to escape the body. I had no peace about taking this. I even told my doctor that. He said “Yes, it is true that many people cannot tolerate the drug, that is why I want to start you on a baby dose and see how it goes.” I still didn’t feel right about it. I chose to not pickup the prescription at the pharmacy.
Apparently, when Diamox is not well tolerated, the next option is Topomax. Topomax is an epileptic drug that many people also do not tolerate well. Several comments I read regarding this drug were saying things like “Sure, you won’t have headaches anymore, but you will also wake up wondering what day it is or what your name is.” I knew that wasn’t an option for me either. At this point I started to panic, because the only other option would be brain surgery to have a shunt or stint put in. The people in the support group who have had this surgery reported that it was great for about three years, but then their tubing became infected or got wrapped around internal organs or they ended up with issues that landed them in the ICU!
Statistically, the mortality rate for this condition is also like 56 years of age, with the suicide rate among women who suffer from this condition being higher than normal due to the debilitating pain and suffering it causes. All of this information, the statistics, the personal testimonies- they all had me in a panic. Then I remembered “God has not given me a spirit of fear!”
I knew that I needed to pause and pray. So my husband grabbed my hands and prayed for us. We prayed for answers and just waited on The Lord to give us some direction. As we sat in our bedroom talking, the thought occurred to me- “There’s a kink in the hose.” I immediately pictured my spinal cord with a kink in it, blocking the flow of spinal fluid. I asked my husband “What if this is the key? What if the flow of fluid is really just disrupted or blocked somehow?”
Coincidentally, (or not so coincidentally, because God is GOOD), I had already set up new patient appointments with 100% Chiropractic a few weeks prior because of their new patient special- only $21 for x-rays, first adjustment, and a massage! I knew Jake and I could benefit from the massage alone and at that price, I couldn’t pass it up. So we decided that we would ask the chiropractor for some supplement recommendations and see if maybe some spinal adjustments could help. More on that later!
The night before our first appointments, a family friend reached out via Facebook Messenger (thank you, Kaye!) and shared that at the beginning of the year, she had posted a Facebook post asking people to share their favorite passages of scripture. She would be writing those passages in a calendar and would be praying those verses and for the people who recommended them. It just so happens that Sunday started the week where she had written my name and verse down! The verse I had shared with her weeks prior was Proverbs 4:20-23 (CSB), which reads:
My son, pay attention to my words; listen closely to my sayings. 21 Don’t lose sight of them; keep them within your heart. 22 For they are life to those who find them, and health to one’s whole body. 23 Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life.
When I read verse 22, I could feel the Presence of the Holy Spirit so tangibly. I felt so much inexplainable peace and knew that He had a plan to heal me. I told Kaye that I was so thankful for her reaching out, that God’s timing was perfect, I needed to read those verses that night. I shard what had been going on with me. She asked how she could pray for/with us, and I knew exactly what to ask. I asked her to please pray for the following: 1. That we would find a chiropractor who can help us far beyond what we could ask, think, or imagine.
2. That we would find the right neurologist to work with.
3. That we would be able to design a treatment plan and protocol that would allow me to continue my work here at the childrens home and also sustain me as I go through graduate school? I’m currently pursuing my masters in counseling with a plan to get my doctorate in counselor education and supervision after that.
4. And finally, will you pray for the pain in my body? I have debilitating migraines constantly because the condition causes an excess of spinal fluid to build up in my brain and causes swelling. This can lead to permanent blindness if left untreated. In the meantime, my eye sight fluctuates greatly and can be quite straining at times, inducing other headaches. Thank you thank you thank you. We need all the prayers we can get this week!
She agreed to pray with us, and I went to bed that night feeling hopeful. The next morning, we woke up for our 8am appointments at 100% Chiropractic.
My first impression of the office was that it was beautiful and peaceful, very aesthetically pleasing (which for your girl, is a very welcome experience). Definitely passed the “vibe check” as the kids say these days… There was fun music playing, the atmosphere was lighthearted, and every single person was genuinely kind. One of the receptionists, Gabriella (I think she may actually be the office manager), gave us a tour of the office and took us into a private room to chat about our medical history get us setup for the doctor to come and take x-rays. When she asked us what our goals for care were, we answered with the basics- less back pain, more agility and energy, fertility, overall health and wellness, etc. I then shared all that we had been walking through with my new diagnosis and said that above anything else, handling that was my priority. She looked at me with so much genuine compassion in her eyes and said “I am so glad you’re here- I genuinely think we can help you. You’ve come to the right place.” I had so much Holy-Spirit peace when she said that.
Shortly after that moment, Dr. Bryan came in and took us across the hall for x-rays. In the short twenty seconds (or less) that it took to walk across the hall, he flipped through my chart and said “Ah, yes- I think I know what’s going on with you.” He then positioned me in front of the x-ray machine. Jake (my husband) stood in the back with him. I could see Dr. Bryan nodding and pointing out something to Jake and Jake nodding in response. Then, Dr. Bryan grabbed the spine model and said to me “So, this bone is supposed to be like this [pointing to the C1, Atlas bone, right at the top of the spine, referencing the normal positioning of the bone] but yours is like this…” He then pinched the bone in such a way that it literally causing something like “a kink in the hose” of my spinal cord! I couldn’t believe it. I literally started crying out of relief and said “You have no idea- you just told me more in about two minutes time than four other doctors/specialists have been able to tell me in nine months.” He asked if he could give me a hug and encouraged both Jake and I saying “if you guys are serious about this, I really think we can help you.” Here is a visual. The left is a textbook “near perfect” cervical spine. On the right, is mine. The C1/Atlas bone that is circled should have a nice space above it, just like the other bones. The atlas bone should also lay parallel to the skull. Mine is almost inverted.
That was Monday, 2/27. By Friday, 3/1 I had three chiropractic adjustments and went three days without having a migraine. I had a *slight* (so slight it was totally bearable without any meds or oils) headache on Friday morning (it was also raining, which is prime migraine weather) and after my adjustment, it was gone. Completely. I am in awe of the relief I have already experienced and I am so thankful that The Lord saw fit to bring us to this place that believes in supporting our bodies, giving them tools to heal themselves. Just as God created them to do!
Over the next several months, I will be getting frequent adjustments, making some major dietary modifications, and working to get in more movement each day. I will continue to update the blog with posts about how I am doing.
I want to point out that I am not a doctor, I am not a medical professional in any way, and I am not saying that people with this condition do not need to take medications. I made that choice at my own risk.
I simply wanted to get my story out and honor what God has done in my life recently. He has been gracious and kind and I know He will continue to heal me, especially as I seek to honor my body.
Thanks for taking the time to read all of this. If you made it all the way through, you either really love me or were in need of some hope yourself. Whatever the reason, I am thankful you’re here. I hope you stay awhile and maybe even find some more encouragement. (Maybe check out this post here, or this one here!)
If you are someone who is also suffering with Pseudotumor Cerebri/IIH, feel free to email me with any questions you have regarding my experience: [email protected]
Welcome to my last-minute holiday gift guide for women! Yes, it’s that time of the year again where you have to scramble to find the perfect gift for your loved ones. But don’t worry, I’ve got you covered with some thoughtful and unique options!
The Gift Ideas
Heaven-Inspired Jewelry & Gifts
First up, we have the Heaven-Inspired necklaces and gifts from the Crowning Jewels Company. These gifts are perfect for those who love to be encouraged in The Lord. How does the “Heaven Inspired” process work? Their website explains it this way:
How Does it Work?
Choose a style
Select your favorite chain color, size and tag options, if applicable
Fill in your name or the name of the person you’ll gift this to
Add to cart and checkout
We then pray for you or the person this is intended for and design a custom piece based on the promises we heard! Your jewelry will come in a beautiful velvet bag with an encouraging personalized card.
As you can see, this unique gift idea is a great way to show your loved one that you care about their spiritual journey, while also gifting them something special and heartfelt.
Planners, Prayer Journals, and Bible Study Gifts
Next, we have The Daily Grace Co‘s bible study, planner, or prayer journal. Because let’s be real, what better way to start off the new year than by getting organized and prioritizing abiding in The Lord at the same time? These gifts are perfect for the woman in your life who is always looking to grow and learn.
A Cute Beanie or Hat
Now, let’s talk about the stylish beanie/hat. The Carhartt ones are my favorite. Who doesn’t love a good beanie? It’s the perfect accessory to keep you warm and stylish during those winter months. Plus, it’s a great way to cover up a bad hair day. Trust us, your loved ones will thank you for this one.
The Famous Barefoot Dreams Blanket
Moving on, we have the Barefoot Dreams blanket. This blanket is the epitome of luxury, and it’s perfect for those who love to snuggle up on the couch with a good book or movie. Plus, it’s so soft and cozy that you might just want to steal it for yourself.
A Cute Coffee Mug & Stirring Spoon Gift Set
Up next, we have a super cute coffee mug, like this one!
Let’s face it, coffee is life. And what better way to enjoy your morning cup of joe than in an adorable mug? It’s the little things that can make a big difference, and this gift is sure to put a smile on your loved one’s face every time they use it.
Gift Cards for Pampering Herself
Gift Cards may just be the way to the heart of that special person in your life. A massage, a pedicure, a day at the salon getting her hair done- rest assured, we ladies LOVE to be pampered, so you absolutely cannot go wrong with this one. Reach out to her bestie if you’re not sure what salon to choose.
PS, If you’re feeling extra festive, tack on a Starbucks gift card so she can get herself a treat to enjoy while she is out and about.
Soy Wax Candle & Wax Melt Gift
Last but not least, we have a clean-burning soy wax candles and wax melts from Garden Ivy Soap & Candles. These products are perfect for those who love to unwind and relax after a long day. Plus, they all smell amazing, ha have incredibly long burn times, and are made with all-natural ingredients, so you can feel good about gifting them!
Gifts for the Limited Budget
If you’re working with a more limited budget than you were hoping, or you have a thrift-loving lady in your life, don’t discredit the power of shopping secondhand! For more ideas on what to look for, checkout my post here. I share some of my own thrifted finds and how I styled them in my home.
And there you have it, the last-minute gift guide for women. I hope you found this guide both helpful and thoughtful. Happy gifting!
PS, if you end up choosing any of these gift options, feel free to tag me on Instagram and share the recipient’s delight with our community! Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
Hey there! I’m Molly—a Jesus-loving, Disney-obsessed wife to my amazing husband, Jake. I’m a proud foster mom and dog mom, navigating the wild ride of life with a sprinkle of humor and a whole lot of heart. As a bariatric patient who’s lost over 170 lbs, I’m all about sharing my journey and cheering you on in yours. Think of me as your personal hype woman, here to lift you up and maybe crack a few jokes along the way. Let’s tackle life together—one laugh and one inspiring moment at a time!Read more about my story here.